Guilty !!  Another day of living with the companion of guilt.  I get so tired of walking with this.  Never enough, never enough.  I can never meet the needs around me.  Never be what others want.  Weariness sets into my soul, covering me in dark despair.  Some days, I am ok--I know this is not a burden I am meant to carry, but today is not one of them....

So I get in my car, starting another busy day of appointments, work...Once again, I cry out to Jesus.  He's heard this story before.  (I wonder, does He ever get tired of hearing my sad stories, the same ones time after time).  But like so many times before, He is patient and comforting.

I turn the radio on and "Hurricane" by Natalie Grant comes on  ( I posted it separately, take a listen).  God, you just meet me right where I am.  And I am so grateful.

And that is not all....Verse of the day from Hope Radio (I listen on 105.1, but they have other stations on Long Island, check them out) was

Jer 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.  

I know, one of the verses everyone knows and loves, myself included, but it was the timing, God's perfect timing that brought me the comfort I needed.  The radio announcer went on  to expound on the verse with things like:  "God doesn't want to put us down.  Whatever we are going through God has already planned ahead for our good.  The same God who was with me when I went in, will be with me when I get out. (of the problem), He won't let me be destroyed", and on and on in this line of thinking.

These words, all met me right where I was at that exact moment in time.  The exact need of my heart was met by our Savior.  When you think He doesn't see, when He doesn't care, think again.  He is there in the midst of your hurricane.  How many places in the Bible does it say He will never leave us?  Sometimes, like this day, He reaches down His hand of comfort and compassion and  makes His presence known and felt.  Other times the heavens are silent and we feel isolated from Him, but that is never true.  And through this blog I am learning this, and I hope others are too.

Joyce M.'s new book title "God Is Not Mad At You" keeps coming to mind these days.  I think we all need to remember that little phrase.  He loves us with an everlasting love.  As a Father pities His children so our God has mercy on us. Thank You Lord for being who You are.  Help us to hold on with a heart of faith and strength that comes from Your Word and Your Spirit.