Question Time Again

This past Tuesday at our Ladies Bible Study we continued our work in Angela Thomas-Pharr's study entitled "Redeemed."   Listening to this portion's video prompted a few of those uncomfortable, but oh so necessary questions I know are prompted by the Holy Spirit.  He loves to nudge us into the unknown, the deep places that take us out of our comfort zone to another level of maturity and growth (hopefully!😊).  I'm just going to list the questions here for you, like me, to bring to the Lord in prayer. 

• Why d I think I am or need to be chained to my sin?
• Why do I still stand in my "sin cell" instead of walking out the door to freedom?
• What does freedom look like for me?
• Why drag around chains that Christ has already broken?
• If I let God take control, am I afraid He will not fulfill my dreams, my desires, my hopes?
• Am I afraid of what His vision is for my life?
• Will letting go of my wants break my heart?

Those are tough questions.  My fellow study sister pointed out that a lot of our fear  is based in unbelief.  We don't believe God can do better.  I think sometimes we carry around our chains, or stay in our boxes because we are comfortable where we are, change is hard, staying is easy and familiar, it feels safe to us even though it is unhealthy.  

The last question is a major hurdle for me.  I feel like if I let go of my desires and hopes my heart will shatter into a million pieces.  And maybe it will.  But maybe that is the only way I can be fixed by the Lord in order to soar.  I'm not sure if I am up to the challenge of letting go...honestly it scares me beyond words.  I can feel the sadness well up in me when I think of letting go of some things in my heart.  Maybe confronting that fear in the Presence of the Lord is something I need to begin to do.  Maybe you have a similar challenge to face.  

This was a powerful session for me.  I have some hard work to do.  Scary!  But what is on the other side of letting go?  God's best for us.  

Lord, these are hard questions with equally hard answers or answers that need to translate into action.  I'm afraid of letting go.  I know freedom requires movement on my part, it will require a decision and commitment...Lord I am terrified of losing my desires, even though I know those desires are most likely not right for me and not the best I can have in this life.  Lord, help me to have faith,  help all of us to have faith to go to You with these questions and then follow You in obedience and trust.  Lord, this is really hard.  Help us to believe You have so much more than we could come up with on our own, You have amazing things in store for each of us, and You will help us get there if we drop our chains, step out of our cells and follow You.  Jesus is the chain breaker!  He is the healer!  Let us be brave!!  In His holy and precious and freedom giving Name....amen

Have a sit down with the Lord!