T R U S T
The saying under it says, "Worry quickly sucks the joy out of the abundant life Jesus wants me to have. What worries most trouble me today? How could I give them to my Savior and receive in exchange His forgiveness and peace?" I love the line in this song where it says, "Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders.." What an absolute beautiful place to be. I can barely imagine a life where my trust in God is without borders. Frightening and thrilling and wonderful all rolled into one!
The Scripture verse included in this section of the devotional was Matt 6:25 Do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?
I then went onto read "One Thousand Gifts" and I didn't even get through 1 1/2 pages during the whole of lunch! I got so "stuck" on what was said, what I read that I had to camp out on this short section and am still hanging out there 2 days later.
John 6:29 (from the Amplified) "Jesus replied, 'This is the work (service) that God asks of you: that you believe in the One Whom He has sent [that you cleave to, TRUST, rely on, and have faith in His Messenger]" And I am going to quote directly from the book here, because this struck such a chord in me and I really don't want anyone to miss this trust thing by my omission of anything.
from Ann Voskamp: "That's my daily work, the work God asks of me? To trust. The work I shirk. To trust in the Son, to trust in the wisdom of this moment, to trust in the now. And trust is that: work. The work of trusting love. Intentional and focused. Stress and anxiety seem easier. Easier to let a mind run wild with the worry than to exercise discipline, to reign her in, slip the blinders on and train her to walk steady in certain assurance, not spooked by the specters looming ahead. Are stress and worry evidences of a soul to lazy, too undisciplined to keep gaze fixed on God? To stay in love?...Without trust in the good news of Jesus, without trust in the good news of God's saving work even in this moment, without an active, moment -by-moment trust in the good news of an all-sovereign, all-good God, how can we claim to fully believe. This is the trust I lack; to know that if disaster strikes, He carries me even there. Trust in the wholeness of the gospel--including this moment, good news too--and be saved, Choose stress, worry , anxiety, reject what God has given now, which is good new too--refuse to trust and be condemned....If authentic, saving belief is the act of trusting, then to choose stress is and act of disbelief...atheism"
Wow. A lot to think about, this trust thing and how far it is to take me. How far I am to go in it. Trust without borders. Isn't that what God desires, demands, deserves? And not just for salvation, but for the day in day out, daily grind, daily demands, the hard, and the easy, the joyful and the downward? Isn't it all in His hand and therefore I am safe? I am loved?
I am not sure, no I am sure I cannot do this. Not without God, completely and utterly changing me. Lord, I want this kind of trust. The one where the $700 car bill doesn't cause me to blink, let alone melt down. The kind of trust where when all is insanity and difficulty at work I can maintain my focus on You and share Your peace with those around me. And I am grateful Lord, for progress, however small it seems to me, the fact that You are working in this area, that I am learning and willing is the start of that change. Lord.....help!!
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