Failure, and God's Faithfulness

Work.  That little place in my day that is my greatest challenge and hardest battle ground.  And boy, do I feel like I am fighting a losing battle most days!!  It breaks my heart, which so much wants to be a light for the Lord, that more often than not I fail so miserably in that.  I feel I become part of the darkness around me, speaking words that harm or build the enemies kingdom, emotions in turmoil and my witness laying in ruins.  My lack of peace that passes understanding is evident, instead of being salt and light, I think and act more like poison and blackness.  Perhaps I am overstating all this, but with the new changes at my workplace, my coping skills are being sorely tested and the Christ-likeness I desire to portray is clouded by anxiety and pride.  My heart so desires to share Christ, not just in word but by the way I live; it so wants to display His love to those around me and glorify Him in all things.  It is terribly frustrating when I fail so completely on an almost daily basis.

All that being said, God is faithful.  And for that I can rejoice and be glad.  As I sat at on break 2 nights ago, big and beautiful in front of me was His rainbow!  Now, I don't know about anyone else, but I take those rainbows as personal signs that God is with me, is still on my side and is watching over me.  And boy did I need to see that bow.

Genesis 9:16-17  "The rainbow shall be in the cloud, and I will look on it to remember the everlasting covenant between God and every living creature of all flesh that is on the earth"  And God said to Noah, "This is the sign of the covenant which I have established between Me and all flesh that is on the earth."

Now, I have to wonder, who God is reminding...me or Himself....perhaps He needs to remind Himself when I am giving Him a particularly difficult time that day!  LOL  Maybe a little of both, ya think??!!

Lord, thank You.  Thank You that You remember that we are dust and that Your love to me is unending, You patience beyond what I can measure.  I am so desperate for both.  Please, Lord, see my heart, which is toward You and help me live out of the Spirit You have placed in side of me.  Glorify Your name and lead many to Yourself.

                    

            And on top of the rainbow, the Lord painted another stunning sunset!!