Lord, quiet me

Yesterday was one of those days.....you know, unexpected time stealers, extra spending, and just plain irritating.  I really should have expected it.  Sunday I did a Voice of the Martyrs speaking engagement at a warm and wonderful church in Brooklyn (Beraca Baptist--visit them if you are ever in Canarsie)  and it went so well.  We had a great time worshiping with this God-centered, on fire church and many people wanted to learn how they could come along side our persecuted family.   So, like I said, I should have expected the low, the hits to come, but I really wasn't thinking about  it.

I had my plan for yesterday.  Like I always do.  My little list of things that just have have have to get done to make my world right.  (LOL...always an amusement to the Lord, I'm sure).  And of course one of my babies (meaning my cat) decided it was time to get an eye infection.  Poor little guy.  So....there goes my time, off to the vet I go.  Just as I started fretting about the money..."God I didn't have enough time between vet visits to resave and build up the 'kitty fund"....my cell phone rings....ok, not a major occurrence you say?  Well, when you know that my ring tone is "How Great Is Our God", you get the picture.  It's as if God was saying, even before I started my whole litany of woe and anxiety to Him, that He had this handled.  He is a great God.  He can and will do whatever He needs to do to care for me.  He's got this.

Ok, the noisy tape recorder (you know, the one with all the doubts and fears and complaints on it) quieted down in my head.  I trust You Lord.  I will not get antsy and crazy over this.  You got me covered.  And my poor little guy too.  Thank You. And as far as the timing, well that's in Your hands as well.  I am going forward on this time issue....just gotta let go and let God as "they" say.  Does anyone know where I can get a job with "they"?  Sounds like a pretty nifty gig.

Onward to the irritating and the angry.   For some unknown reason (although I think it may be a spiritual problem), like I have mentioned before, I get to work and the negativity starts attacking, the anger and annoyance starts building.  I do believe there is some kind of (demonic??) negative energy that pervades that building and it just attempts to overwhelm every time I step through the door.  Some days I am better at fighting it off and tapping into the greater One inside of me than others. Some days I just allow it to infect me and in turn it affects (or is it effects?) my witness...which I hate.  There is such a darkness there, the words, the emotions of people, the mistrust and animosity...  Oh Lord, help me to be light.

This happened both Tues and Wens.  So anyway, I get out to my car at lunch and had to run to the bank.  So I listened to the radio...and yes God once again visited me through some inspired, anointed Christian music.  The first song that came on was Plumb's Need You Now.  I think this is my theme song.

Next up came The Newsboys "We Believe".  This just lifted me and helped me refocus and regroup.  My heart soared with this affirmation of my faith and I was able to get through the rest of the night in peace and contentment.  (ok, don't know how to fix the alignment here !!! I am so not computer savvy!!! LOL)

Anyway, I guess we are staying with this centering thing.  God really spent time visiting yesterday, reassuring, reaching down and lifting me up, letting me know that even though I didn't feel His presence, even though I felt all dark, dreary and feary inside, He was still there, still in control and still loving and caring for me.  I am so grateful.  I love You Lord.  Please help us to see Your visits today, even if we can't sense Your presence.  Give us faith, and let us keep Your hope, especially when things seem hopeless.  Thank You.