Hurry

How many time have I spoken of being in a hurry, feeling stressed and rushed.  I always have this picture in my mind of being on a treadmill with a to-do list in one hand and a stopwatch in the other, unable to catch my breath as I run and run and run.

At lunch time last night I was reading "One Thousand Gifts" by Ann V again.  She included in her book a quote from a pastor she knew that just resonated so deeply and so thoroughly with me.  It seemed to shake something at my very core in a frighteningly profound way.  I am still quite shaken by it.  The pastor said: "Through all my haste I thought I was making up time.  It turns out I was throwing it away."

How devastating.  How saddening.  Is that what I have been doing?  Have I been so focused on getting done, moving forward that I have been rushing through the moments in my life that would have brought me the peace and joy I've been longing for.  How many God visits have I missed?  How many opportunities for gratitude, for praise?

I am still reeling inside from this statement.  I so so so want to change this perspective in my life.  I know I've seen glimpses of this principle before and I've tried to embrace it only to get back on the treadmill time and time again.  But this one statement has reached into the center of my being and caused a shock wave.
And I am praying that my time on the treadmill is over.

Will I be perfect in this?  Probably not.  Will I continue to work with the Holy Spirit to enter in to each moment and only that moment of my day?  Yes.  Eyes wide open to see the presence and glory of God in each task, each tick o the clock.  Lord help me !!