God's wisdom, His way, my way

Recently we started a program at my church called The Story.  It is based on the Bible written in the form of a novel, and goes from Genesis to Revelation.  The Lord visited with some eye opening revelations for me regarding the fall of man, and the similarity with which I live my own life.  It is so easy for me to look back at Adam and Eve and criticize and wonder how in the heck they could ever have fallen, yet I do much the same thing and I have access to God's written Word any time I want, along with the incredible gift of the Holy Spirit living inside of me.

In Genesis 3:4-5 we see the serpent tell Eve: "...You will surely not die.  For God knows that in the day you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil." Satan promises wisdom.  In James we are told "this wisdom does not descend from above, but is earthly, sensual, demonic"  Wisdom from Satan brings about bitter envy and self-seeking, confusion and every evil thing. (see James 3:14-16)  But oh at the time, it seems so logical, it plays on our feelings and our senses and is so easy to be deceived by.
Anytime I go outside God's ordained boundaries, I am going to get into trouble.   Like Adam and Eve, I become "drawn away by my own desires and enticed." This desire "...when conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, brings forth death."  (James 1:14-15).  

So the question is, what desires of my heart do not line up with God?  These are the ones that need to be submitted to Him.  In what ways am I seeking self-government and self-determination?  Idolatry.  Recently a dear friend mentioned that perhaps the reason the 1st Commandment was that we shall have no other God before Him is because we tend to make a "god" out of ourselves, wanting our ways and our wills.

These are some very hard question, along with how much of myself, of my life do I want to hand over control of?  I am having a very hard time laying ALL of it at His feet.  But I know that is what the Lord is calling me to do. This is a hard visit.

My prayer is simply this:  Search me, O God and know my heart; try me and know my anxieties; and see if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way of everlasting.  Ps 139:23-24.  

Ps 37:4  Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart.  

When my delight is You, the desires of my heart will be healthy, holy and in line with Your will for my life.  As Capt. Picard of the starship Enterprise used to say: "Make it so."