I shared this link because I thought it was a moving commentary on how we feel about ourselves when we can't seem to beat certain sins in our lives. I've really been struggling with impatience and anger lately and I feel like they consume my heart some days. It's so frustrating when I can't seem to be the "good" Christian I want to be or feel like I'm supposed to be. Feeling like a failure seems to be my walk lately and even though I know God's love never fails, I feel so unworthy of it. My mind's eye sees Him turning away in disgust and frustration....and nothing could be further from the truth. My head knows that. My heart on the other hand just hurts, feels alone and wants to curl up and cease to exist.
Has anyone else been there? I know they have. Well this is our God visit. The one that says, "I see you." "I love you." and "I am on your side." God does not leave us without His love. He does not leave us, period.
Genesis 16:13 Then she called the name of the Lord who spoke to her, You-Are-the-God-Who-Sees; for she said, “Have I also here seen Him who sees me?”
Jeremiah 31:3 The Lord has appeared of old to me, saying: “Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you.
Romans 8:34 Who is he who condemns? It is Christ who died, and furthermore is also risen, who is even at the right hand of God, who also makes intercession for us.
My heart hurts. I just want to be pleasing to God. And civil to others, lol. I want to be a good witness and shine the light of Jesus. I know these desires pleases God...I just want my behavior to catch up.
Struggling with this the last few weeks has been very depressing and emotionally draining. So when my friend sent me this video (she did not know I was going through this), it was like a light shown around me as Jesus Himself came to "visit." I know God wanted to sooth my heart and encourage me not to give up. I know He is doing the same for someone else through this blog entry today.
Lord, thank You. I know even the smallest desire to please You brings You joy. I also know that "He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ;" You will never give up on Your children. Please encourage each person that reads this. Let them know You are working and they just need to keep going forward, keep trying and keep trusting. It's in the Name of the one who makes intercession for us that I pray. Jesus Christ
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