More

I have a need in my heart.  It's a need for more.  This isn't really about a God visit. It's just me praying.  I don't understand the gravity of my sin.  I don't understand the depth of God's love.  I don't comprehend the actual devastating loss of Eden and complete, unhindered fellowship with God.  And the cost of the Cross does not totally register with me.  But I want to.  I want to understand, to grasp the  reality of it.  Lord, make it real to me.  Make it vivid and deeply personal.  We know in part, the Bible says.  And it is so true.  Help me to know more.  Help me to feel more.  Help me realize the meaning of all this.  I want to go below the surface. Take me to the deep, where You are.  I feel so unaware of the extent and intensity of all these concepts, no more than concepts, realities.  Lord I need more.