Mom

Yesterday, my beautiful Mom was called home by the Lord.  My life, our lives, were so enriched by her.  She will be so very missed, more than I can say.

My focus of this post if Hope.  She lived with the hope of glory.  And I am so at peace knowing she is with her Savior and all the loved ones who have gone before.  I know lately she was missing more and more the ones who had gone on to heaven before her.  And I am thrilled for her that she is finally with them.

Of course, God has visited during this time.  Giving words and signs of comfort. He is so awesome and full of compassion.  A couple of years ago, my Mom had spoke of a vision she had.  She told of being in Heaven with Jesus and they were dancing.

As we drove home from the hospital Sunday morning, the Lord brought to my remembrance those words she spoke.  And I was filled with peace and joy for her, knowing she was dancing with her Lord.  What a comfort.

My Mom was sick of hospitals and doctors.  She didn't want to go to them anymore.  My husband and I both believe she died before she left the house.  I thank God for that.  She did not have any suffering, nor leave this earth from some hospital bed.  What a blessing both for her and us.

Yesterday we went to the funeral home...you know all the details and arrangements that have to be done.  As we picked out those little cards (forget what they are called) 2 stood out to me.  One was a picture of a dove in the clouds.  My Mom loved all the stunning cloud formations that the Lord created.  She was always saying, "oh look at the clouds, aren't they beautiful!"  So I knew this was perfect for her.  Also there was one with the Cross atop the water.  About a year or so ago, my Mom told of sitting at Tanner Park and just seeing Jesus on a boat in the water, beckoning her to come to Him.  So I knew that both these were exactly what she would want on her remembrance cards.  They so much spoke of her.

We had the opportunity to pick the reverse side verses as well.  And of course the Lord's Prayer was one of the choices.  Over the last couple of years she has been so excited about this prayer and studying it intensely.  It's amazing the way God is working these things out, step by step, tiny detail by detail.

I was going through all our old pictures yesterday.  I came across my eight grade graduation picture.  There was a big banner in the church (I graduated Catholic school), and on the banner was written: "Death has been overcome."  I always tell God when asking Him for direction that I want a neon sign to come down and tell me what choice to make.  I think this was His way of sending my "neon sign."  Our God is not only comforting but has a sense of humor.  I am so humbled and grateful that He would do this, down to the littlest point of reference, for me.

I see God working out each and every detail of this process.  I think back over the last year or so and see His hand weaving the last times of her life into a beautiful tapestry of visits with friends and family.  It really is wonderful to see.  So many times we take for granted and God was there, working it out that each person she loved and that loved her was able to spend time  with her.  I am so grateful and so blown away by His care.

Mom, I miss you. I know you are so happy where you are but I feel so adrift down her without you.  I  know God's comfort and care are here for me.  I see it in everything.  I am grateful.  I love you.